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Bandar could hear Hind's footsteps as she walked towards the door,
"I can't believe I did this.." he thought to himself, he felt his body shaking and he couldn't control it, "why did I react this way? Ya Allah, ya Allah.. I waited for 8 years and I couldn't give her five minutes?" he heard the door closing and felt his world crashing around him.
Suddenly he felt her cold hands touching his forehead,
"Bandar.." she whispered, "red 3alay please"
He stopped shaking but still kept his hands over his face, "I can't look at her now," he thought.
"Bandar Allah yer'6a 3alaik.. don't do this to me" she begged him, "you know I can't lose you, what would I do without my Bandar?"
Bandar could physically feel his heart breaking but he couldn't say anything, "what does she expect me to say? 3adi? It's ok?"
"Bandar.." she held his hands trying to pull them away from his face, "please look at me"
He looked up at her and she was shocked to see the expression in his eyes, there was so much pain, he looked like a lost child and all she wanted to do was kiss his head and hold him in her arms, telling him that everything will be ok and that she will give him anything he wants.
"Hind.. I really can't do this anymore. I can't be your strong person.. ana ma 3ad feeny a36eek shay.. 5ala9.. you took everything. I don't mean to be harsh, but this is the truth. I have no energy left in me. I waited for years hoping, that one day you will notice me, one day you will realise that I stood by you because I love you, and that you will love me back."
"But I do love you.." she whispered.
"As a friend? That's not love.. atleast that's not the love I have for you, I want you to be my wife, I want you to carry my children, I want them to have your hair, your skin, your eyes, I want them to feel like you, to smell like you and to laugh like you. Maybe that's too much to ask, but this is what I want.."
"It's not too much.."
"What?" he looked at her shocked.
"What if it doesn't work out?" she said, looking at him with tears in her eyes, "I can't take another break up, I can't, I can't.."
"What if it works Hind? Don't you want to be happy? Ana shareek Hind, shareeek"
"I don't know.. I don't know.." she said shaking her head, "this is too much, I can't take it Bandar, I can't tell you I love you now, I mean ofcourse I do.. bs I've never thought of it this way.. maybe if I gave myself time.. I don't know.. but Bandar I don't want to risk losing you"
"Hind.. you will never lose me, even if it doesn't work out I will always be here" he said encouraging her, "come here," he said pulling her into his arms. Hind felt safe between his arms, like nothing bad could ever happen to her, she could feel him breathing softly on her hair and could feel his fast heartbeats close to her cheeks, she closed her eyes and breathed in his smell, "ok" she whispered.
"Hind.. galby?"
"Haaa? hahah that's the best you can do?"
She looked up at him smiling through her tears, "baal kilish maby achoof wayhy in the mirror, akeed I look like a panda, are you sure you want to be with this?" she said pointing at her face.
"a7la panda fe il3alam" he replied kissing her nose, "Hind I don't want to be with you."
"Haaa?" she looked at him shocked, "al7een tawek ga3ed tgool ly.."
"ee ee I don't want to be with you, I want to marry you, " he said putting his hand in his pocket and pulling out a maroon Cartier box, "I know this is too much, and you're overwhelmed, but I love you and respect you, I also respect your parents, fa ma ab'3a yejy youm o they think that I took advantage of their trust for me, la tensain inhum fet7o ly bait'hum" he said quietly, "I want my intentions to be clear, don't say yes or no now, just keep this with you." said Bandar, pushing the box in her hands. "Can I see it in your hands? Or would that be asking for too much?"
Hind didn't know what to say, she WAS overwhelmed, "umm yeah I guess, why not?" she opened the box to find a beautiful 3 carat princess cut solitaire surrounded by two smaller solitaires on a platinum band, she carefully slipped it on her ring finger and showed it to him.
"Allah la ye7remny minik.." he said kissing each finger.