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Hello, My name is.. (11)

Dear Diary,
Ya Allaaaaaaaaaah 3ala his smile.
After saying what he said yesterday, I was shocked, I mean seriously, I didn't see this coming! I know I have been obsessed with him but I thought it was only me. Hehe ok let me explain what happened.
My hand was still in his, his smile shining brightly in the dim restaurant. I don't know how I kept my other hand on my lap, all I wanted to do is reach out and touch the cute dimple on his left cheek. And, I was still in shock. He was smiling at my dumb expression,
"Uuhhhh" That was the only thing that came out of my mouth. In my defence, inside my head I was having a very eloquent conversation with him, but nothing came out!
"What is it? Am I scaring you?" He said as he pulled my hand close to his lips and kissed each fingertip. I felt electricity course through my body. Shit! Wake up, wake up! It's not like me to be so quiet, but honestly nothing came out!
"Noora redy 3alay.. are you ok?" He was looking at me with a worried expression on his face.
I shook myself out of my trance and finally smiled, I could see the change in his expression, he looked relieved. Is he really worried about what I think of this? Can someone this beautiful ever doubt the effect he has on people? 
Apparently yes.
"Umm.. I don't know what to say" I said pulling my hand away from him and placing it firmly on my lap.
"Say how you feel. It's ok, tell me anything.. ma ra7 az3al 3alaich, o itha ma wedech tchoofeeny mara thanya ra7 awa5er 3anech"
"Noooo it's not that. Ok I have to be honest with you.."
"What is it? Shit, akeed you already have someone, ofcourse how could you not? O ana mithel il7maar I freak you out..."
"Can you let me finish a sentence?"
"Oh sorry" he said looking down at his plate, "go ahead"
"Well. I have never had a boyfriend" I heard him breathe out a sigh of relief, as if he was holding his breath; really? I can have that affect on people?
"That's good.. well good for me" he said grinning.. that dimple again, he's planning on killing me today.
"Listen, I don't know how to do this, I'm not the emotional type, I'm very straightforward. I cannot do the sloppy love thing, I can't have you around all the time, I can't call you 7abeeby o fedaitek o int wain o shga3ed tsawy 24/7.. and I don't want you to do that either, you have your life and I have mine, my friends are important to me and hmm.. I think those are the main points"
"Hhahahah ok and that's what I like about you.. can I ask you how do you feel about me? Or is that too sloppy for you?" he was laughing!!! at me!!!!
"That's not funny itha mub 3ajbek I can leave"
"La la la 3ajebny 3ajebny, kelshy feech 3ajebny..So.. your feelings? I assume I don't repulse you since we're sharing a meal hehe"
"Umm.." I didn't know what to say, I can't express my feelings! "Madry.. ya3ny I guess yeah I like you"
"Hahah which is why you gave me the rules? Does that make us a couple now? Or am I under probation?"
"Inta ga3ed tet6anaz 3alay!! I am serious!"
"Hahah o ana ba3ad serious, which is why I need to know where I stand. My feelings for you are clear, from the first day I saw you I felt a connection between us, and when I saw you again at the gym I knew it was meant to be. Yemkin a'6aygech because what I'm saying is too emotional bs this is how I feel"
"La ma t'6ayegny.. I think I pretty much feel the same way, but I'm not good with words like you are" I was mumbling with my eyes looking directly at my trembling hands on my lap. He makes me feel things I never felt before, "A7med I want you to know that this is really confusing for me, ya3ny I've never felt this way before o shway it's freaking me out"
"I understand, and I'll give you all the time you need. We'll take this as slow as you want, I promise, and if at any point you freak out, tell me and I'll back off"
"What about Dana?"
"What about her?"
"Ya3ny it'll be awkward"
"It won't.. don't worry about her.. don't worry about anything, I'm here." he said that and reached over to tuck a loose strand of my hair behind my ear.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaah galby.
Today we go out on our first official date.
Until next time..