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Senses.. (9)

He sat watching the cigarette burning between his fingers as he thought of her; he wondered why he was thinking of her so much? And why did it bother him that she seemed indifferent to him?
He dropped the dying cigarette in the ashtray and picked up his phone, wondering if she still had the same number, well so what if she did, he wouldn't call her, would he?
Shaking his head he quickly dialled a familiar number, the warm feminine voice answering, as usual after the first ring,
"Hala 7abeeby"
"How's my favourite sister doing?"
"Yal3ayar, I'm your only sister!"
"Hahah, how are you?"
"I'm good, sha5barek?"
"Ok, I guess"
"You guess? Come on, tell me what's going on"
Dana and Fahad were more than siblings, she was his younger sister, he grew up looking over her and protecting her, and she was also the one person he could confide in.
"Dano I saw Nouf yesterday.."
"Hmm.. at work"
"Why don't you sound surprised?"
"Don't be mad, but I knew she worked there"
"So that's why you were pushing me to take this job?" he yelled,
"Unbelievable! I don't need you to meddle in my life! I'm doing quite well on my own!"
"But Fahad.."
"Don't Dana! When did I complain to you?"
"My God! Do you have any idea what I've been through since I saw her? The rollercoaster of feelings? Feelings I don't want to have!"
"Fahad, please listen to me, listen wallah she's good for you, you need.."
"You're right, she's good, she's always been good! Too good for me!"
"Don't say that Fahad, you deserve to have someone like her in your life"
"Ya Allah you don't get it! You don't get how badly I screwed up!"
"No! You didn't see the look on her face, when she saw me, Dana she was disgusted, she didn't yell, she didn't scream, I wish she did.. she just looked at me with utter disgust!"
"Fahad what you went through that day wasn't easy, what happened to me and Hamad.."
"No Dana, please, please I have no excuse, we can't keep blaming everything to what happened to Hamad and you."
"Fahad 7abeeby please stop punishing yourself.. She would really be.."
"Dana there's no point, the girl hates me. Besides I have no feelings for her any more, it's all over. It's been over for a long time."
He hoped his voice sounded convincing to his sister, because deep down he was having trouble convincing himself.