Senses.. (31)

'Just marry the damn guy!'
'Manal!!'
'Wallah! Put us all out of our misery, this has been going on for too long, how many times did he tell you he loves you?'
'It's not enough, I know he does, I just don't know if I'm enough. What if I disappoint him, you know, after we're married?'
'You mean in bed?'
'Manal!'
'What? It's a valid point, he has experience, but again, he loves you, I don't think that's the only thing on his mind, otherwise he would've married anyone.'
'You think I should text him?'
'Call him.'
'Now? It's too late'
'Ok, text and ask if he's still up'
'Ok, wait'

Nouf: Are you awake?

'Ok I just did'
'Did he reply?'
'No. Oh he just did, how am I supposed to text him with you on the phone?'
'Just put me on speaker'
'Ok'
'What did he say ya 7mara! The suspense is killing me'

Fahad: Can't sleep, why are you still up?

'What should I say?'
'Say you're thinking of him'
'That's so lame'
'But it's true'
'No I don't wanna say that'
'Ok, just say you're thinking'

Nouf: Don't know, thinking..
Fahad: Thinking of what to type to me or just thinking?

'What's that supposed to mean?'
'Don't know, type question mark, not literally, just the sign ya3ny'
'I get it I'm not an idiot'
'I wouldn't be so sure'
'Ha Ha'

Nouf: ?
Fahad: It takes you ages to reply, keeps saying Nouf is typing a message then I get two words lol
Fahad: Never mind I was trying to be funny

'He's making fun of me'
'Testahlain, I told you to call him'

Fahad: Can I call you?

'He wants to call'
'So let him!'

Nouf: Yes

'Ok he's calling, I'll call you back'
'Don't! I'm going to sleep, g'night'
'Ok, g'night'

'Hi'
'Hi you'
'So?'
'So? You can't sleep?'
'No, what about you'
'You know I don't sleep much'
'Yeah, you get by with 4 hours, never understood that'
'Yeah, you need your beauty sleep. I'm handsome regardless of how many hours I sleep'
'Trying to be funny tonight I see'
'Trying but not really succeeding it seems, haha'
'Fahad?'
'3yoony'
'I don't know what to do'
'Noufa'
'Hmm..'
'7abeebty'
'Hmm..'
'What do you want?'
'I want.. I don't know..'
'It's ok 7abeebty you can tell me'
'I want things to be easy'
'In what sense?'
'In the sense that.. I don't want to worry about what's gonna happen tomorrow.. I want to feel safe.. I don't want to be heartbroken and humiliated again.. I don't want Zaina and London to happen again.. I want to love you and feel happy being in love with you..'
'I think.. I think that the last part is the most significant.. that at least.. you still want to love me..'
'Fahad I can't not love you, I think that's what's killing me the most.. it's like it's part of my DNA. Like all my life I was moving towards loving you, and it freaks me out'
'Why?'
'Because..'
'Because what?'
'Because I don't want this love to be my undoing'
'Nouf..'
'No, you don't understand.. I can't live through another heartbreak.. I wouldn't be able to survive it..'
'Shhh.. it's ok 7abeebty.. please don't cry.. I swear to you I would never do anything to hurt you,  I learnt my lesson very well.. I can't go through the heartbreak again.. what happened changed me.. I swear to you..'
'What if I'm not enough for you?'
'What do you mean?'
'I mean what if in a few months or years or however long you meet someone you're more attracted to..'
'Haha.. Nouf.. that's the most natural thing in the world..'
'See? I can't do this..'
'Shh.. hey.. hey.. it's normal to be attracted to people, if I saw a beautiful woman I will acknowledge her beauty, but I would never act on it, because no beauty is worth losing you again..'
'How do you know that?'
'I know that because I haven't been with anyone since being with you.. sure I've met a lot of beautiful women, I won't lie, but never developed into a relationship and I never sought them out'
'So.. you've been single since? I find that hard to believe'
'Haha.. thanks, I appreciate your confidence in me. Yes I've been single, by choice at first, and then it just became a more natural state for me'
'So.. if we didn't work together, you wouldn't have married someone else'
'I don't know, I don't think so.. maybe if I was under pressure, eventually'
'I see'
'Nouf.. I'm trying to be honest with you.. I love you..'
'I see that'
'But?'
'I'm scared'
'So just jump in and lets get married'
'Really?'
'Really. Take a leap of faith'
'Yeah?'
'Yeah, think of it this way.. there's always divorce'
'Fahad!'
'Haha I apologise.. another bad attempt at a joke..'
'Bad indeed'
'Noufa'
'Yes?'
'I love you, stop waiting for me to fail and believe in me'